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Sunday, 30 April 2006

the love of my life..the best day of april, 17, 2006

PorphyriasMyCure: like we wer running bak home cuz it got late to his house..nd i cant run cuz it hurts my heart..badly
PorphyriasMyCure: nd so i had an anxiety attack nd he got so scared so worried he kept rubbing my tummy..
PorphyriasMyCure: nd saying its ok baby dont worry wer almost ther dont worry baby
PorphyriasMyCure: nd held my hand
PorphyriasMyCure: and just cared so much nd hes lik o man my gf is havin an anxiety attack o man..
PorphyriasMyCure: nd then we wer walkin on the sidewalk nd i said how r we gona be in the future?
PorphyriasMyCure: he said jus lik this..walking down a sidewalk...holding hands..smiling..and lovin each other to death
PorphyriasMyCure: nd i said wut bout now he said same thing and kissed me
PorphyriasMyCure: nd then we got to hise house we hung out i had to go outside so he told me to go to his window..i did..
PorphyriasMyCure: he opened it..nd we wer talking..having a deep personal tralk...
PorphyriasMyCure: and showin nd gicvin each other how much we really do love nd care for each other..
PorphyriasMyCure: and i was cold so he gav me his sweatshirt..
PorphyriasMyCure: and just that was the best day of my life..
PorphyriasMyCure: the day we shared our love...emotionally and physically..
AngelCenturion:
PorphyriasMyCure: i mean how ROMANTIC
PorphyriasMyCure: was that..
AngelCenturion: it was
PorphyriasMyCure: nd we wer talking thru the window..
PorphyriasMyCure: and before i had to leave he got upset nd hes lik well..call me and i will pick up i love you alot baby
PorphyriasMyCure: and kissed me
AngelCenturion: "Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away,"
AngelCenturion: @}--/-----

i will alwas love joeseph daddario...but now wer over..and i will just have to keep moving on..

Wednesday, 10 August 2005

so yea..im in love yes a lil to hard this time wich i lov but yet it sux cuz i cant see him....but wer both strong so wer gona wait til june. but i lov him nd he alwas texts me everyday every morning. ah i lov that guy..he changed me...nd i changed him...but toda we wer talking nd he made me so upset...cuz he said o yea im only gona liv til im 30 then im gone im lik wtf, nd yea im tryng so hard to make him stay aliv nd stay with me til wer very old and die old...but he wont chang his mind nd its upsetting me cuz then wel only hav 10 yrs together..i dont wan 10 i want lik 100 but he said he made a promise that hes gona liv til hes 30 and thats that...idk wtf to do..idk idk nd its making me so miserable..someone plz help me.. i dont kare if its to early to talk bout this...itll be worse wen wer 30 nd then he tells...

Tuesday, 17 May 2005

yea so i realized im not on xanga nemore cuz mypsace hsa been very addicting. plus i met someone new and i didnt no that i cud lik someone lik this much. i think i found a lover haha but tom is alwas nd will alwas be my first love alwas nd forever. this guy is awesome tho i like him alot but he can fuck with girls head so yea cuz i alredy no he made this one girl think that he wans to ask her out so she jus said i lik u nd hje said i no it may seem lik i wana ask u out, but i jus wana be ur friend. so yea, i dont wana do nething yet..but all ym friends sai that he liks me but i bet its another trik that him nd all guys do. BUT I THOT GIRLS R SUPPOS TO FUCK WITH GUYS HEADS!!!! o well i ges now its turning around nd their beating us DAM THEM. so yea i hope he liks me bak if not then hey wel be friends it'll be good. we hang out lik every weekend nd this sunda wer gona see house of wax woo nd yesterda he was jus lik r we stil gona see a movie this weekend nd imlik OM I TOTALLY FORGOT so yea. thats cool i get to be his photographer for his band!!! so im excited o yea i got a job at annie sez (no its not an old ppls clothing store) its lik for teens too so yea lol. thats all cya biches

Saturday, 09 April 2005

so toda was mucho fun, i went to dan's house, then we drove over to woodbridge mall. it was awesome he was driving so i was lik ahhhh noo wer gona die, but turns out hes really good haha. so yea we went, hung out, ate, got som stuff, went to HOT TOPIC XD spencers, stores yea, did w/e, i got laughed at cuz i was laughiung bout him laughing bout dans hair. nd yea.im gona make this short, so then we wer waiting for his mom at the car, nd he said can i ask u a question, do u lik anyone? i was so stupid isaid no,nd hes lik no? i said i mean well yea i do nd hes lik do u lik me? n o yea he asked if i was wit someone i said no, nd i said yea i lik u nd he asked if i will go out wit me nd iwqas lik YES hehehehe lol i was so shy bout it n yayyy then he walked me to the door nd we made out nd it was nice, hehe i lik himmm DAN BOND hehe <3 k byee

Saturday, 12 February 2005

ok so heres wut went down yesterda...nd i wud talk botu tom but i really dont wana cry rit now..but all i can sa is...
R.I.P. thomas henry gonch....july 10, 1986- Jan. 30, 2005..
i miss your touch..i miss holdin ur hand..i miss ur kiss..i miss ur deep stares...i miss how u made me blush. u helped me out nd understood..i tried helping u out with everything i could..i love you and i miss you..

but let me talk bout yesterda..so errol came nd picked me up cuz i asked him b4 nd if he cud tak me to my friends house nd then i asked if he can tak janelle nd well i didnt no bout christy nd hes lik woah woah idk if il hav enuf room so.....we all had to squeeeeeeeeeze in nd then lik i called brian at lik 3 sayin il be ther soon nd ewll we wer lik dropping of ppl nd picking up nd dropping off nd eating nd shit nd im lik UGH so an hour later i fianly got ther nd we walked to his firend jakes house MY HIPPIE nd we walked around went to downtown metuchen nd we sa hello kitty sign nd wer lik HELLO KITTY YAY so...we go in, thers nothing lol til we finaly found it. nd then we left nd their firend matt came so he was cool then later on i sa this freshmen at their skool hahahahahha hes BIG nd teywer trying to see his cd player nd hs lik YO GET OFF nd omg lol. later on we left kinda.......jake left to tak a shower lol so then it was me, brian and matt. we walked to this chinese restaurant lol they wer all talking in chinese nd brians lik translate plz NO lol.hm.....then later on we left nd walked to this guy rob? arab? idk lol nd they all kept sayiung he was gona molest me nd i was lik NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i dont wana be touched! lol but he didnt THANK GOD. if he did i actully wud hav to punch him. but he nd this guy was playing the guitar that was great. i lik guitar nd drums i lik idk it jus sounds so cool. then brian nd matt almost left me in the same room as that dood lol i kept lik following i was lik NOOOOO ahhhhhh. hmm oo they put on SUM 41 woooo lol. nd that whole time hter i was jus acting so stupid nd making stupid funny faces nd my feet wer all lik turned inward nd im lik playi wit my jacket nd jus omg idk lol but it was so stupid yet funny lol. nd im trying to be all serious ah lol. then later on we all finaly got to the mall nd hung out, me nd brian went to...PACSUN!!!!!!! i so wanted to get this blak dickies skirt nd then get pink fishnets nd then a really awesome shirt that i sa but yea i didnt get it lol. i kept doinbg the asian giggle lik do that pose nd giggle wit my hand over my mouth nd go hehehe. nd then they started doing it lol. thos white ppl they cant do the asian giggle! so then.......idk we jus hung around goofed around............uh i cant remember so much........we went t othe food court nd matt sa this other girl from myspace lol so he ditched us nd then we all jus sat nd talked nd OOO hooters omg lik jake was wearingthis hooters shirt with signatures al over DAM i lov it. lol so we ewr talking bout going ther all of us lol. um...then.....idk we wer jus acting silly well zach nd jake wer mostly nd got thus one guy to crak up alot lol. then alot of palces we went to jake nd zach wud kik us out lol UGH so then we come bak in nd get kiked bak out. nd then we sa the lil girls dance at that lil place for b-da parties nd im lik omg they dressed them up lik SLUTS! nd jake wud dance along while passing thru lol. um we went to the dollar store so brian cud get the soda mmmmmm soda he was carrying all my stuff i felt bad hahaha sry brian ! nd zach bought som balloons nd theywer inhaling the air lol. i lov thos voices. hmmmmmm idk wut else happend i totally forgot but il rit it in here wen i remember. o wait the end lik we got free pretzels lol i had 4 YES then we went out by the movies nd we sa this guy cliff ? nd he liks zach LOL nd hes lik alrit lets go come on nd yea lol. aww how cute. we went bak to the movies cuz that guy was following us lol well zach. we went otuside nd they played wi the bouncy ball hitting each other nd shit. then l;ater on that night ...........i was trying to find a ride home cuz no one wud tak me home nd r jus out nd gino was lik if u giv me head il giv u a ride i said NO i will not giv u head wtf forget it. so yea i almost had no ride home til brians mom said sure THANK U GOD THANK GOD ughhhhh nd ia ccidently called mike walsh nd hes lik i wud so giv u a ride but im in college i was lik OMG OMG OMG IM SO SRY I FORGOT OMG lol. so yea i totally forgot to get home from the mall so i made som rong turns lol. but then got home nd wen i called arielle she told her mom that i was stranded so ...she called MY MOM so my mom FOUND OUT THAT I LIED OOOOOOOOOOO. so i come home im in deep shit cuz i got caught for lieing cuz i said mr. carter was gona drive me home but htat was never tru so yea i told half of the truth got grounded for that but hey thats alrit im alwas in truble. nd my dad was lik SHUT UP EMILY nd im lik U SHUT THE FUCK UP nd then he started running after me nd im jus walking nd my moms lik screaming lik all terrified shes lik JEFF JEFF JEFF NO STOP IT NO !!!!!! nd im lik w/e nd slammed the door in his face. then went in my room they hav my cell fone but i got my other fone so i called arielle nd yea then brian called nd yea i almost fell asleep on the fone nd yea.